Finding myself

Finding myself
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Thursday, July 22, 2010

Sorethroat and Flu

Sorethroat, I do not like you. Please go away. I do not understand why but I always get sorethroat here, in Kelantan. I mean, I do get sorethroat back home but not as frequent. It is like I have sorethroat at least twice a week here, in campus and normally, it lasts up to two to three days. Sigh. It is really irritating having sorethroat, especially at night. This is because I cannot sleep soundly as I can actually feel the sore.

Another good friend of sorethroat but an enemy of mine is flu. Flu, why do you like me so much? I keep getting blocked nose and I cannot breath normally. And the worse part is one of my nostrils is blocked while the other one, haha, mucus kept flowing out of it. Oh goodness, I hate being sick. Should I blame the weather here, that keeps changing from extreme hot to heavy rain and vice versa, or should I blame myself for not taking good care of my own body???

I miss home so much. Oh, Home Sweet Home. At home, mommy, you had always and will always take care of me when I am sick. When I mentioned that I am having sorethroat, you will immediately go into the kitchen and make me a honey with lemon beverage to soothe my throat. I feel much better immediately not because of the beverage that you made for me but because of the care and love that you gave me. I know, mommy, you are always worried about my health as I have been a child who get sick easily and I know that it has not been easy for you to raise me up. Sorry, mommy and thank you so much for being my mother, for taking good care of me, for worrying about me, for the countless things that you have done for me. I miss you, mommy. And I love you so much.

It is actually very weird as I did not get homesick during my first year in uni but in fact, I feel homesick during my second year here. I wonder why? Haha.. I know why. It is because of you guys, you know who am I talking about. You guys are like my family members here. You guys made me feel like home. Well, this is life, we move on, we go on separate paths. No no no. Actually, we are still on the same path. We are still studying in the same uni and we can still see each other. It is just that we can hardly see each other nowadays as we are busy with our own life. Well, I should not think like this. Hey, Pei Yen, girl, think positively. You should think in this way: You do not lose them, you still have them, "your family members here". It is just the same case as your real family members. You do not see your brothers very often too, because one of them is busy fighting for his career while another one is studying in another state. You can hardly see them too. Remember, people that you care about and love so much, they do not necessary have to be with you all the time. They are already in your heart.

YES, I understand, TOTALLY understand... Whatever it is, I miss all of you so much. ^_^

Monday, July 19, 2010

The Beginning

Today, I decide to create a blog. Partly, it is because our english lecturer asked us to create blogs so that she and her writer friends can check them out, as what she has said. Well, I think it is a good idea to start blogging. I am searching for a new path in my life, as I think I am lost...in some way. I am still learning, learning about everything because learning never ends... So, here i go, with my very 1st blog created tonight after learning how to create a blog.

To be honest, my english is not very good. I had always have problems in writing: grammatical errors, spelling mistakes, etc... And I am also kind of confused with the tenses: past tense, present tense, future tense and so on. So I am hoping that by blogging, I can improve my english as well as my writing skills... And of course, hopefully, I can also be more imaginative !!!
Salute, Creative Writing...

Just to share with you people, I think I have been wasting my time, my life lately. Ever since I came back to campus, I have done nothing benificial. I have been sleeping, eating, chatting online and participating in drama marathons. I know this is WRONG.. and that I should stop losing myself as well as wasting my life. Man, I mean life is short and therefore we should cherish each and every second of our life. I must start doing things that are meaningful and make sure that I will not regret in the future about not doing something in the present. So, to the people out there who are like me, please WAKE UP and do something about it!!! I am sure you can. Come, let's start afresh in life and work hard together to bring ourselves back onto our path or to search for a new path in life.. ^_^