Today I took an afternoon nap. When I woke up and was still lying on the bed, I can felt that my heart was pounding very hard. I can actually felt and heard my own heart beats. The heart beats were really fast and strong. So I was kind of scared. Fortunately, roughly after a minute or two, my heart rate became normal.
Well, this is the first time I have this kind of experience. Therefore, it kept me wondering why did it happen, was it normal and was I dreaming. But I am quite sure that I was not dreaming and in fact, at that moment, I also had these weird feelings of sad and not wanting to wake up for the rest of my life. Was I depressed? Was I suicidal? I have no idea.
Well, this is the first time I have this kind of experience. Therefore, it kept me wondering why did it happen, was it normal and was I dreaming. But I am quite sure that I was not dreaming and in fact, at that moment, I also had these weird feelings of sad and not wanting to wake up for the rest of my life. Was I depressed? Was I suicidal? I have no idea.What ever it is, all the feelings disappeared together with the extremely fast and strong heart beats. Moreover, I feel normal physically and emotionally right now. So I should just forget about it.
By the way, no rice for me for the whole day. Fried noodles plus an egg for brunch and barley for dinner. I am a naughty girl. My mom would be scolding me if she knows. But what to do? I am in Kelantan. Never mind, I will get proper food for tomorrow's meals then. ^_^
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